Random Thoughts Put Down On Paper

I do not expect anybody to answer any of my questions in this post.

I hear people, all the time, say that when you find the person youre meant to be with, you know right then and there. That person that makes you feel safe and wanted. That person that makes your heart race just thinking about them, or whenever they walk into a room and all of a sudden you get butterflies in your stomach and your throat goes numb.

Well, what happens when this person that you so long for and desire, doesnt even know you exist in their world? How do you cope with that degree of dissappointment? How do you wake up every morning, knowing that this person that gives you all these feelings, doesnt nearly feel the same way you do?

Do the kind of romances in movies and love stories actually exist? 


just some thoughts...

Later,
        Whitesugarr

The L Word

LETS TALK ABOUT LOVE!<3
(First, let me start off by apologizing if you are color blind and cant read my red text...but I felt the need to set the mood.)

Hey you...yeah you...have you ever been in love? 
Now, Im not talking about the kindergarten kind of love where you cant live with out this person and how you want to spend the rest of your life with this person...and all that mushy shit talk you say when you THINK you've found the one...
NO! Im talking about the feeling you get when you meet someone and you know, right then and there, that destiny has drawn you to this person for a reason. That feeling in the pit of your stomach that makes you want to spend every moment with this person. The kind of love that hurts so bad, but feel so right at the same time. The kind of love that makes you want to cry and laugh.....(wait...now I know some of you make think to yourself "What the hell is she talking about?!") Some of you may not know what that feeling is...
I know, I have NO IDEA WHAT THAT FEELING IS LIKE! But, I so want to feel that when I meet the person Ive been spending my life looking for. 


Now...lets talk about pain. I could write novels about pain. Not the kind of pain you get when you break your arm, but the kind that makes your broken heart go into your throat, so that it takes all of your energy and concentration to breathe. The kind of pain that makes you want to scream and sob at the same time. The kind of pain that makes you want to hurt everyone around you because you're suffering and they're not, because they can breathe without feeling guilty and hold a normal conversation without breaking down into fits of tears or rage. 
Ive never had someone break my heart in the same way most of you may have. But I know what its like to fall completely in love with someone who barely knows you exist, and not have them want you back. I know what its like to try and get over a person you see on a daily basis, knowing that you will never get to be as close as you so long to be with that person.
And I know what its like to hate this person, because its the only way you know how to forget them. I know from this experience that hating someone you cant help but love, just makes it hurt even more...


For now...

                  Whitesugarr

Im not calling you a liar

Okay! So I lied to you in my first post when I said that I was gonna really try and post things often. I definitely have not been trying because I realized that I have nothing to say to you people...as much as I thought I would.
I here by promise that I will try and shape up, because I cant let my readers down. (Just kidding, I really don't care what my readers think.)
So come back often and check to see if I have any enlightening words to say to you. If you come back too often and I don't have anything new up, then that means that you don't have a life...and you should probably go find one.

Much luv,
                Whitesugarr

Stop pointing your redhanded finger!

Okay so now that Im out of class and I have time to actually wirte a blog...
Sad to say I, as well as millions of people around the world, found out something very tragic on saturday night as I sit safe in my home. I was very sadden to hear of the death of a true legend, that being the one and only Whiteny Houston. I remeber growing up my mother was a big fan of Ms. Houston and would play her music all the time. I still love singing to it to this day.
In writing this blog I want to show my true condolences toward Whitney's family and close loved ones, and the millions of fans all over.

So lets get something straight. The fact that Whitney Houston did drugs, had NOTHING to do with the amount of pure talent she possessed and the fact that she was an extraordinary performer (one of the best), which is what we all know her as. We didnt know her personally, no matter how amazing that would have been, so we have no right to judge her at her lowest moments. Everyone has a weakness, a vulnerability, and sadly for a lot of people these days, including celebrities, that weakness turns out to be drug abuse. I just feel that Whitney Houston shouldnt be remembered for the things that are nobody's business. She should be remebered for what she was known for, I mean thats only right. So people need to respect that.


Whitney Houston 1963-2012
May you rest in heavenly peace!



Today is THE Day...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL MY PEOPLE OUT THERE!! WHETHER YOUR IN LOVE OR NOT...YOU SHOULD APPRECIATE SOMEONE TODAY, BECAUSE YOU ARE LOVED!!!

WaStInG SpAcE

Okay, so since I obviously have a life, I wont be blogging everyday>>>but im seriously hoping to blog every couple days, because I feel like this could be a good thing for me. Lately Ive been starting to write, which I have never done before. I find that writing whats on my mind can be good, because I notice how genuinely brilliant I am!!!! LOL no seriously, I want to share with others the things I go day by day thinking about...even if its how ridiculous this world is around me. So I want to take this blogging space up to tell you readers out there that if you have a twitter...you should probably follow me< I cant promise to follow back, but at least Im honest about it. twitter.com/scali10 =>Im not gonna lie, my twitter is pretty random, but thats what you get when you hand someone a cell phone and tell them to post their random thoughts throughout the day...THAT IS WHAT TWITTER IS, RIGHT?!????

A Fresh Start

Okay! So Ive had this blog for a couple years, and I ve come to realize how pathetic it was looking. Sooooo I decided to DELETE all my posts and make a fresh start. Im going to make my first post an introduction to myself and letting all you readers know what you in for. So here we go...

My name is Sarah...I have a very independent view on the world. Im just not the type of person that feels like dealing with people. Since I graduated high school, I noticed how much Ive changed. I cant stand people that think they are wise. However I am not quick to judge and I will stick up for someone, even if theyre an absolute stranger, if I felt like they were being verbally attacked. I guess because no one ever really stuck up for me. I believe that there is a vulnerability in everyone and if I hear someone mocking the negative things about another person, I will argue back with all the positives, because no matter how much of a b*tch someone can be, they always have good qualities about them. I love debates (on subjects I know) and I will argue with someone to get my point across, especially when I know Im right.


I dont like people in general, Im not a people person, even though most of the time I have to act like I am. I get easily exhausted when Im around people too long.
You may think Im rude by some of the comments I make, but its my oppinion on what I see everyday, and its obvious that people really do suck! However, I am very open and I do give people chances to change my view on them.

There are only a few people I couldnt live without, which I could probably count on one hand. Other than that I dont really care. I am very free-spirited and opinionated. I am Italian. I guess that explains it. And I am hot-headed, I get annoyed easily, but I CAN control myself. Im pretty straight-forward, Im laid back, Im not very "out there", I think in side the box most of the time. I like to keep to myself, and I try to stay away from MOST confrontation.
 
Random facts...
I love photography

I want to be a doctor
I am a very picky eater
I dont like talking on the phone
Im a germaphobe
I love sports...Im very competative
I cant wait to have kids
I dont tell people my problems
I dont swear
I am not very religious butI am VERY spiritual and I DO believe in GOD!
Im in nursing school
I have 8 piercings and 2 tattoos. Hoping to get more
Ive been playing basketball since I was 2 years old
I am a HUGE Mariah Carey fan.
Im obsessed with Marilyn Monroe
I dont go a day without chewing gum
I could really care less what people think of me
I think doing drugs is stupid, and no one should ever put their body through something so harmful.
People who smoke gross me out
Going in the ocean freaks me out...but I LOVE it
Im very adventurous...
I hate school work
I dont like being pushed into doing things
Im very sarcastic and I like to joke around a lot
When I grow up I want to live as far away from everyone as I can...just because
If I could, I would live on an island by myself, somewhere for the rest of my life.
I am very much an introvert
I cant be around people too long...I start getting impatient.
I love watching movies
I could be outside all day if I had the time
I like reading.
My favorite thing to say is "Dont hate!" and "Thats Dank"
Im not afraid to tell you what I think
Im Sicilian and Im proud
If I dont talk to you, that means I dont want you to talk to me
I think twice before doing ANYTHING...actually I probably think more than twice
I trust verryyyyy few people...most likely your not one of them!

Yup...That pretty much sums me up. There is a lot to me that I dont share with other people so I figured HEY why not write a blog!!